I have been having…a really horrendous time with sleep. Last night I barely slept at all. Yesterday I was catching up on sleep, from having woken up at around 2:30 AM with really bad acid reflux, and not going back to bed until after sunrise.
The bright spot in this is that I was able to sign up for a bunch of social media accounts for the business I’m planning to start. I was also able to more fully develop the website I’m starting for that business.
I’m posting this here instead of there, because it’s personal…and I would like to keep intensely personal — and largely unedited — reflections off of a business site. (You know, like, a site with a mission statement.) This blog, however, has been…more personal than even I have felt comfortable with, all the time. The ability to display vulnerability was something I was trained into by my Creative Writing program; and by a lot of experiences in young adulthood. Not to mention in my Art training. They’ve undoubtedly left me a stronger and more resilient person for it, but the chaos and drama of my youth is not something I wish to relive.
It took a while for me to realize that social media might actually help clients in my target markets know I exist — even if I don’t particularly care for the platform. If I hadn’t been required to register in grad school, I wouldn’t even be on LinkedIn. And…LinkedIn is useful, if only to keep up with past coworkers and find job leads.
This site began ten years ago as an unlisted blog. I’m of the age where I literally grew up on the Internet, so I’ve seen a lot of things (that are best described in words I can’t say here) that…thankfully, I’ve learned to avoid over the last decade. Sometimes when you want a peaceful life, you get a relatively…well, quiet, one. If I want to reach other people, though, as commerce requires; that kind of causes me to need to extend myself somewhat. At least, to set myself up so I can, if I need to. Not to say that I have decided to.
Yeah, now that I think of it, I do tend to overshare.
Anyway…I have been productive over the last couple of days, but it’s difficult to see, because most of the work is digital. Also, I may end up forgetting I did it, because I did it in the very early morning.
The Bullet Journal thing is…going its own way. So to speak. I keep writing down things I did that I didn’t plan on doing, instead of creating tasks for myself (when? the day before? the same morning?) and checking them off. Maybe that’s just my style? I’m not sure.
I do know that it’s easier for me to record what I’ve done after the fact, than it is to plan to do something and then hold to it. I know I’ll eventually have to do the latter, however; as it’s basically part of self-employment.
The good thing about this is that…it feels weird to say it, but I’m more motivated to take care of myself than I have been, for a while. I’m not sure if this is because the first part of this week was taken up with deep-cleaning and reorganizing some areas, or because I have been waking up early and staying up. During the daylight hours, I mean. I did some work on earrings two days ago, that feels more like it’s been five days ago. It’s the opposite of what happens when I sleep in late and am up mostly at night, where it feels like the days are shorter and I’m missing time.
So right now…what is most apparent to me is that I can either go make earwires (which might be mildly entertaining), or go make face coverings (which might be very helpful). I…think I’ll do the latter, at least if I have enough time before dinner. I don’t think I do — I can smell food — but…